交換週記 32
我太強?
快 有年輕的女同事離去---現在各同事也是鬧哄哄的討論如何歡送她. 我這時候在想,如果是我的話, 大概不會引起這種騷動吧? 以前我就說過,我和同事間的關係就像是 “主人與路邊貓.” 現在由於我沒有再跟隨 “外出吃飯黨”, 我的定位已淪落到可有可無的境地; 有些人連 “撩” 也省得去做, 而我也把撒嬌的成本也收起了. 我發現,當不上他們茶餘飯後的主角 (除了做錯事),實在有點寂寞.
中六以後,許多人說我太強,常一個人處理所有事.可是我又沒這種感覺,我一直都是小心翼翼、規規距距、盡能力完成應做的事情.
---中六時謝超嬋老師的一句 : “自殺就是你這樣的人!” 令我委委屈屈的過了兩年預科生活, 心忖: 我偏不死給你看!你憑什?預言我會去死?
----上次行山時力有不逮, 我其實休息一會兒便可上路, 可是男同事堅持替我背上行李,那時候心中確有點不快… 可是吳醫生(女,Resident M.O) 一句: “讓男生去做,這種時候他們應該去幫忙.” 令我沒什麼籍口堅持說 “不!”.
----記得奶皿說過我: “學這麼多的東西幹什??不懂就留給男人去處理!”我也十分熱切期待這位MR. 的出現. 可是他未 “蒲頭”, 我又有什麼選擇? Ans. 自己囉.
倚賴人,我會很不安的,尤其是我最混沌的時候.被出賣,達不到我期待的失望是很難掩飾的;我一定一定會很牽強的說謝謝囉…
知道嗎? 我的生日塔羅所示是 “女祭師”. 其實也頂對味的… 我的確是個注重威權，嚴肅、生活嚴謹的八婆.
註定是老孤婆!
1 則留言:
You must believe in yourself. I really think you are good and brilliant and somehow if your Mr. Right will appear at the perfect time that is right to you.
Often we complain why we fall in love with someone who won't love us or those who love us we have no interest on them. Yet, we never really know whether or not what we thought is really right. How do we know the type we choose is really good to us? How do we know those who approach us is completely incompatable? Try and you will see.
In fact, I am glad to know you want to see your Mr. Right. You know, it is only for those who are looking for it will see it. :) I truly think you are loveable to many guys if you are ready to open your heart to them and share your lovely and intelligent thoughts with them!
Indeed I am so impressed with your wit and knowledge!!
So here I am. I am Isa ah. and the nickname of mine is Tinkerbell. kekeke. I will visit your site often ga! :)
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