人與人交往的期限在那兒呢?
有時候跟一些朋友聚會, 席間總聊到 "某某快結婚了"、 "某君也讀Master了" 或 "某人已升職了". 這些喜事, 聽到一定高興; 可是想想, 其實挺事不關己.
有時候跟一些朋友聚會, 席間總聊到 "某某快結婚了"、 "某君也讀Master了" 或 "某人已升職了". 這些喜事, 聽到一定高興; 可是想想, 其實挺事不關己.
那個某某,是我曾經暗戀過的人;那個某君,是曾經同桌吃飯過的同窗;而那個某人,曾幾何時是我的恩人.(借我抄過功課).這些在我生命中交匯過的人,如今卻是一年也不會email 聯絡一次.
朋友間的交往期限有多長呢? 我在想, 變了質但仍聯絡你的, 還算是朋友了嗎?
就好像我的一些大學同學,表相看似 "自己人" 般偶而約你出來聯誼,但實質上是 "show off time! " 最怕....最怕....當自己婉言退卻時, 對方回應: "你即係唔俾面唧!" ......於是我唔俾面到底, 所有他們的來電一概飛去voicemail.
但當某一日 "打聽" 到他們最新消息時, 還是會泛起失落: 原來他們巳到了這種地步,而自己則好像原封不動. 我想, 他們會繼續離我越來越遠.
我巳不曉得,這種疏離感, 是因為我嫉妒, 還是我"高竇過頭".
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Once they asked Heath Ledger (Ennis Del Mar in Brokeback Mountain) what he thought about his chances of winning Best Actor at the Oscar. He replied something in the effect of: "Filmmaking is not a race. Every performance takes on a different course and finishes in a different place. I don't see how anyone could compare completely dissimilar performances and find a 'best'."
Lifting all the "expectations" placed upon our shoulders, we see that life pretty much works the same way - it's not a race. Everyone is running a different terrain, with a personal goal visible only to herself. Heather Nova's Virus of the Mind asks this three times in a row:
'Cause is anyone out there inside me?
I said is anyone out there inside me?
I say is anyone?
The question answers itself.
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